Friday, March 6, 2015

An Open Letter to my Body

My Dearest Body,

First and most importantly, I have decided to love you. You work so hard for me. Next, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the times I've criticized and demeaned you. I'm sorry that I ever hated my bumps, stripes, curves, rolls, bruises, hair, and skin. I'm sorry for the times that I didn't think that you were good enough to be loved. I'm sorry for the times I didn't feed you when you were hungry, and I'm sorry for the times I didn't give you enough nourishment.

So, what do we do now? I choose to love you, and I'm going to show it. From now on, I will do my very best to remember that you are a gift. My body, the only one that I have. I will praise your beauty and hard work, and I will not allow comparison to others to steal away my joy. I will feed you when you are hungry. I will spend more time making you stronger. I will nourish you. Sometimes, I will even tell you 'no' when you want something that isn't in your best interest.

I'm starting to think of you as my first experience parenting. You are a responsibility that will never leave me, so I should not waste any more time disliking you. You're mine, and you're here to stay.

Right now, you are good enough. Right now, you are beautiful. However, improvement is always a goal. That's what parents want, isn't it? For their children to be the best that they can be. I will do my best to not push you too hard, but I also will try to keep you from getting lazy. Things are going to be better between you and I from now on, because I accept you. And I love you.

Your steward and keeper,


Friday, July 25, 2014

My Non-Apology Letter

This letter is to announce that I have decided to make a change: a different change from the kind that I usually make.
For one reason or another, I have battled shame for being who I am. Not just shame for my shortcomings, but a sort of shame for my strengths as well.

As a devoutly religious person, humility is an important virtue for me. Somewhere along the way, it seems that I've confused humility with presenting myself as less than who I am.

The Lord said:
"Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.
 Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.
 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven."
 -Matthew 5:14-16
 It is by the grace of God that I have been given strength in times of great weakness. These blessings aren't something that I should be hiding, but embracing and thanking my Heavenly Father for every single day.

Allow me to be completely clear, I absolutely do not think of myself as better than any other person in the world. I believe that every single person in this world is a child of a loving Heavenly Father who has potential far beyond their own capacity if they but seek His aid in living a good life. However, I'm done "toning down" my strengths in hopes of gaining the approval of others.

My name is Melissa. I have many shortcomings, and I've decided that hiding my strengths should no longer be one of them. I am a law student, I am strong, I am resilient, I am creative, I am capable, I am blessed, I have overcome hard things, I am spunky, I have big dreams, I can do hard things,  and I'm not sorry.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Water, Water Everywhere

For anyone who is not currently aware, I really really adore water. The sound rain falling, swimming in it, playing in it, watching it fall and wind so freely, the canyons it carves, the coolness of it on your skin... Everything about water just makes me so incredibly happy. So, I'll be dedicating this entire post to water and all of my experiences with it in the past week or so. This will be a long one, hence the read more after this point. Enjoy!

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Hot Air Balloons and True, True Friends

Hot Air Balloons
6:30 a.m. this morning, I get a call from my friend Alisha. It being so early, I silence my phone and don't answer it. (Sorry, Alisha!) Then, as I'm about to slip back into slumber for another hour, my phone goes off twice--indicating that I have a voicemail. "Oh, this must be important!", I think to myself. So, I listen to it and Alisha says, "Hi, Melissa! I know it's like, super early. I just wanted to tell you that there's a hot air balloon outside of our apartment...". Immediately upon hearing this, I open the curtain to my bedroom window. Much to my delight, a rainbow colored hot air balloon is indeed flying fairly close to our complex. I was so happy; I am still smiling about it!
 For those of you who aren't aware, I have a bit of an obsession with things that fly--most especially hot air balloons, kites, and birds.

True, True Friends
I love my friends; I really love them so incredibly much. My move out here would never have been the same without the companionship I've had from these amazing people. Last night, I went on a walk with Ashley; there is nothing quite like someone deciding that they want to spend time with you. It is so wonderful to be thought of and to get a bit of fresh air. 
Sometimes you just need chocolate and something to watch to cheer you up. Last night was one of those nights. I'll let you in on a secret, surefire way to cheer me up: ponies. My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, to be exact. My wonderful roommate Rebecca watched 3 episodes with me and even seemed to enjoy it! It's so much better when you're not watching it alone. She is a true, true friend.
Warning: this song will probably be stuck in your head all day.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Great Friendships Lead to Great Quotes

Today alone, we've had some fantastic quotes happen at my apartment. I need to record these for posterity:

Me: On what planet is this okay?
Ellen: ...Pluto; because it's no longer a planet.
Me: Too soon!
Me: Ellen doesn't believe in punctuation everything is just one continuous thought
Me: How do I own IronMan 2?!
Me: Don't doubt my powers of deception.
Me: They're gonna kill Santa!
Rebecca: But the bad guy's white! He can't be the bad guy!
And now, some oldies but goodies:

Jordan: What happens in 23, stays in 23.... We are in 23, right?
 Me: Ellen! Quit walking like an ape!
Me: [awkward silence] We're friends... and it's great.
 Leah: I don't wanna lose my womanly baby-making powers!
Me: The sound of my voice breeds guilt
Me: You sound like a monkey.
Jordan: I used to sound like a dolphin.
Me: [stuttering serendipitously turns into beat-boxing]
Me: Oh, sheep! ...I said sheep, guys.
Me:  I hope my clothes don't fly out!
Melissa B.: ...Me too!
Me: Sing it, Rosie O'Donnel!
Melissa B.: I will.

More to come in the future!

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Colonel Brandon

I have found within the pages of Jane Austin's Sense and Sensibility a kindred spirit: Colonel Brandon. Albeit I am only 50 pages into the book, a couple of statements about him rang true for me.
"Brandon is just the kind of man... Whom every body speaks well of, and nobody cares about; whom all are delighted to see, and nobody remembers to talk to"
Brandon is "a very respectable man who has every body's good word and nobody's notice"
Now, not to say that this is true on all levels, but it does feel quite familiar to me, especially in the realm of--dare I say it--dating. 
Many will mistake this as a complaint (it's not) so I won't be advertising this post. It is merely an observation. On the bright side of it all, Colonel Brandon is played by Alan Rickman in the BBC adaptation.
Rumor has it that he finds love in the end :)

Monday, May 27, 2013

Today Is Amazing!

Today, on this Memorial Day, I had the wonderful fortune to only work 4 hours; what a blessing work is, too. I also got to go to the park twice with some awesome people! For the first time in my life, I played ultimate frisbee and I also found another person who knows what Speedminton is! Frisbee, Speedminton, otter pops, and friends!
I also made chicken and dumplings, managing to feed 9 of my wonderful friends dinner and even save some for a couple of lunches for myself. Kelsey, Makenzie, Ellen, Melissa and I also watched the new episode of Studio C!
 Goofing off, dancing, laughing, singing, playing, sharing, diving for frisbees, drinking a Slurpee, and getting to know new people! Today is a fantastic day.
To finish off, have a silly joke :)