Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Things Are Quieting Down

So, yes, I'm officially single now. Matthew is still an important part of my life, though. Terms have been set for us getting back together, and he's determined to meet them. For now, I'm open to going on dates with other people and whatnot. Things have gotten better between he and I since the break up, despite it being rough at first. I feel more at peace now. Though, I do have to admit, it's hard watching my friends (many of whom are younger than me) get married and start families and whatnot. More so than anything, I want to be a good wife and mother. Right now, it feels like my life centers around waiting to get married. Honestly, I'm afraid to commit to anything else. Moving away seems far out of the question. I feel like my mom needs me right now to be living at home. I also feel like I would be running away from my calling of stake young single adult representative. If I did something like that that, I don't know that I'd ever forgive myself. Once again, I'm doing my least favorite thing- waiting. Now I remember why I entitled this blog "Ramblings and Whatnot". Good night for now!
~Melissa